After The Last Tear Falls

 

As I look back upon Christmas this past week, I realize it's not the joyful day it is for me for everyone...

What about those families mourning over the loss of their Children after the shooting? What about every wife and mother who lost a man in war this year? What about the families stuck by the Batman shooting in Colorado? And what about all those in the silence? All those who secretly ache in pain, who self-injure, who give into drugs...

We live in a world of pain. We live in a world full of broken people. Often it takes a shooting to realize the pain out there.

Yet we have a promise. These things will pass away.

Last Christmas was rather hard for me. I was overcoming the loss of my best friend. The last thing I wanted to do was celebrate Christmas. But on Christmas Eve, I was reading my bible when a verse hit me. One I had read many times before, but seemed suddenly so new...

"He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Revelation 21:4

Crying and mourning are a thing to pass away. The pain of this world results of man's falleness. And through the cross, Christ has conquered death. Death and pain are to be no more.

One day Christ will forever defeat death for "The last enemy to be destroyed is death" (1 Corinthians 15:26).

And he shall wipe every tear from our eyes.

Yet still we live in a fallen world. A world where we will be hurt. Pain, sadness, mourning, tears aren't sin. They are naturally to our lives. But Christ will conquer them.

Pain is something I tried to be stronger than for years. I tried to heal. Deep inside, I knew the only thing that could heal me was God and His timing. I know so many others feel this same desire to heal. Can I just tell you the glorious thing He revealed to me? Pain is not a part of God's kingdom. It will be gone with the new world.

So this is to every human being who is in pain these Holidays, to all those who cry but no one hears, to all those broken lovers...God has promised to wipe every tear from your eyes and let you dwell with Him forever. Only just a little longer, and we will be able to be with him. He will wipe every tear from our eyes and our hearts. We shall rejoice then and forever.

Fragments of Coffee, Happiness, Hair, Christmas, and More Coffee

i. I am feeling rather good right now. The best I've felt in a while. It's due to the fact God's really been convicting me not of having a joyful heart, so I've been trying. The result is rather lovely. I actually like being joyful.

ii. It's also official coffee season. Peppermint Mocha's. I drink way too much coffee. But It's just so good.

iii. I'm off work until January. I am aware this is not normal for anyone. But the kids I nanny have been sent to spend the holiday season with their Grandma. So I am free. I am currently spending the week with my dear friend Liz. Next week, I get to go home #rejoice #sohappy

iv. I dyed my hair. I have never done it, except for highlights since I was 15. I haven't cut or colored it at all since a mistake I made a while back when accidentally making it green.  Last week, I decided to maybe dye the edges. Liz agreed to help me. Then, I thought--what if I did the whole thing? Liz was excited and the boy approved...so we did. It's still brown, but much lighter. I still really love it, but I'm still getting used to it.

v. I've had time for reading lately. A lot of that is reading blogs I haven't been able to in forever. It's rather nice. I've also picked up reading books a lot. I miss when I had more time to do that. John Green books are becoming my favorites of all time, I will say. And I read Perks of Being a Wallflower again just because it makes me cry and my heart race a million miles. I bought a bunch of Jane Austen books and want to read those over the holiday too.

vi. I will be honest here. I'm not too proud to be an American right now. I trust God, but I see poor leadership. I am considering moving to another country (sorta...). Not because they will have it figured out, but because I won't know anything over there about political junk.

vii. I'd like to revisit number two. I am currently drinking coffee. It's wondrous.

viii. This is a weird post of fragments. But my life is one giant fragment of a greater puzzle. 

ix. I realize this post made no sense.Hopefully over break, there will be real posts. Not just me being me. But me being me is the point of this blog.....

x. ...and I don't even know if I got all the roman numerals right....

xi. ....so I'm ending this post.

xii. So bye.