I was sitting on the porch the other night with my friend Sophie. We pointed out stars and giggled like girls in 8th grade. We drank pumpkin spice coffee and marshmellows. We dreamed of fireworks and our futures. We talked about God and his work in out lives.
"So, hows your love life?" Sophie asked me after a moment a silence.
I was stunned. I didn't want to anwser, but the truth? My love life is currently nothing.
Yeah, maybe I have a few crushes and sure guys have flirted with me, but that's no love life.
I was at a restuarant the other day when two teenager guys kept starring at me and talking. It was making my mind go crazy. When we left, and I walked by their table one of them said,"I want to say hi to you."
I wondered what I should do? My mind was going crazy! I just...walked off. I heard one of them whisper to the other,"at least she smiled." Haha.
That no love life. Sorry, friends.
When I was in 8th grade, my mind would go crazy every time a blonde haired guy would give me a high-five or smile at me. I would die when I found out a guy liked me or asked to dance at a wedding.
It just isn't like that any more.
I don't know why and I really don't care.
My deep longing for a relationship hasn't gone. But the kinda relationship I'm looking for is not what I was a few years ago. I am looking for something more, something more beautiful. I'm looking for a wise, manly, guy, who brings me much joy.
I want a guy that you can't mention without mentioning God. I want a biblical romance. Not a cute, hollywood, it-just-happened-to-work-out relationship. Yep. That's what I'm looking for. I mean sure guys are cute and handsome, but I look for something much more. Something that lasts forever.
Those 8th grade crushes won't last. True love lasts.