I'm getting married, peeps. Married. To Will, the greatest man on earth. Yes! He is going to be my husband!!!!!!!!
It's been a couple of days, and I am just taking it. I've been crying in excitement all week.
I've been the worst blogger ever not to tell you all, but I wanted to save it for a time where I had time to tell you the full story. So here I go:
Remember that last post I wrote while crying about trusting God? I wrote that right before going out the door to spend one last night with Will before moving away. We had coffee at our favorite little place in town and then went for a little walk.
In our town, they still keep Christmas lights up late. So the lights were all pretty around us. We sat there on a little bench, and it was starting to snow. Light music was playing.
We were silent, because I didn't wanted to goodbye and he was nervous (but I didn't suspect at all).
Then he pulled a letter out of his pocket and read it to me. I didn't realize what he had planned at all. I listened, I cried. I'm not sure when I realized this was when he was going to ask. It's all a blurr now. But it's so beautiful.
Then he got down on one knee, with the snow falling and the music softly playing. I somehow stopped crying long enough to say yes and fall into his arms. The next few moments were total bliss. I was in his arms, and he was in mine. In his arms, in that moment, it all made sense. It made sense why all the other guys hadn't worked out. It made sense that all this time God was leading me to this moment with Will.
I can't describe how beautiful this is. I was telling a dear friend I met through blogging and she said
"I'm crying. I've read your blog since you used to write letters to your future husband. I've talked to when things haven't worked out. Somehow I knew when you started dating Will that he was the one. It's amazing to have been on this journey with you."
This makes me cry, too.
In all, I am so overjoyed. It feels so right. It all seems to make sense for once. I"M GETTING MARRIED! EEEKKK! I could die with all this happiness.
God is so faithful to me!
(a letter I sent to Will the day after he asked)
William C, I love you, I've loved you since you were fifteen and running around on the beach, your hair flying in the wind. I wasn't sure that was love, but every day since those days you've proven to be just how perfect we are for each other. Every word you've said has given me a feeling I've never felt before. We both knew for so long, but we waited. You and I both knew God wanted us to wait until we could get married. Waiting was so worth it.Waiting only made me love you more, and It gave me time to learn more from God. I'd wait a thousand more years if I have to, just to spend one day in your arms. I'm crazy, but this is a crazy world. So crazy things happen. Crazy things like you falling in love with me, even though I know I'm not worthy. I'm not perfect and your not perfect, but we had learned to love each other's faults.
I don't know when it was, maybe that day on the beach, or maybe that day in Germany when you finally asked...but I finally understand what love is. I finally understand if I was looking at every boy in the world, you'd be the only one I'd see. Your that one love and I want to spend every single day of my life looking into your eyes and having adventures with you.
So right now I'm reading you this letter, because I know if I didn't write it down, I'd forget everything I wanted to say. I just wanted to tell you that I understand now, after many years of wondering, your the man God picked for me before the world was made. Somehow, our separate lives came together. Somehow, out of the billions of girls in the world, I ended up with you. I'm so glad that happened. I could go on writing forever, but the point of this letter is telling you I love you.
I can't wait to share more of our journey with you all!